Motivation

Okay!! Here's my rant. I would like to curse and keep everything in caps, but I know it'll be annoying and "unappropriate" (whatever that means)

I HATE NUMBERS! Too many numbers!! FRIG! I ate two THIN slices of WHOLE WHEAT pizza, a glass of wine and a sandwich, fruit and a cookie. THAT'S ALL! It came to above 1200! Like, 1289. WHAT THE DUMP!!!! It didn't seem like I ate that much at all. It's so frustrating! I AM STUFFED, I don't want people to tell me to eat 1400-1600, because that is way to much. GOD..UGHHH. CC is friggin' telling me to eat 1200 to lose weight. That's 2 lbs a week let's say. ONLY 2 LBS A WEEK! I am getting very impatient. I did everything right!!! Maybe I am "eating too little"????!!!????!!!! Monday I ate like 7 slices of pizza, came to 2500 all day, so this week I am trying to slow it down. What do you think. Ate way to much Monday, I ate like 800 yesterday to make up for monday, so today I wanted to keep on track. GOD..I can't even fit into my favorite underwear!!! AHHHh I'm doing everything right!!!! I HATE COUNTING CALORIES!!!!! Why does everything have to be high in carbs or calories?????!! The only stuff that isn't is stuff that I can't live my whole life eating!! I need whole wheat bread PEOPLE, I need my BEEF and PEANUT BUTTER! I want to snack on chocolate OKAY!!! I LOVE PIZZA, I can eat it all day, why is everything SO FRIGGIN EVIL!!!!


*phew* So I lost my friggin' motivation, I hate this so much, I hate night times being bloated, feeling FAT, having chub and stretch marks and other LAME girl problems we all have to friggin live with. It's that time of the month, does that have ANYTHING to do with it. Come on people, CONSTRUCTED RESPONSES ONLY!!!!!!! AHHH

Don't feel bad.  I lost my motivation too today.  I drank a liter of DrPepper (my weakness) and ate a ton of chips.  I think we all need something tangible to keep us motivated.  I was watching TV a few minutes ago when I got my motivation back.  I was leaning back in our recliner with my 2 month old daughter sleeping on my stomach.  It hit me then that if I do not take care of myself, I may not be around to see my grandchildren.  Both of my parents are diabetics and over weight, and a grandparent on either side were diabetics too. 

Take a deep breath.  It's OK to be angry with yourself.  Pull yourself back up by your boot straps and keep trying.  We ALL screw up, and being human we will screw up again.  God knows I'm going to pay for drinking this stuff in the morning. (It gives me the worst stomach aches).

Sad thing is, my husband is a fitness freak.  Go fig.  Oh and I understand about the beef.  We raise beef cattle on the side.

       &nb sp;               &nb sp;               &nb sp;         Debbie

Yeah! I lose it at night a lot. Defiently comes to a point where you are like "hey, frig this , weight needs to GO" and being there for your grandchildren is GREAT motivation!! I ate chips tonight,, but I dont give a damn, they were good and I will feel great tomorrow morning. Im starting to wake up and feel mega in shape now, that's what strength training does for you! Seriously, it's a great thing, everyone should do it, takes time. Take a 120 lb women who doesnt work out and a 120 lb women who does, the 120 one who works out will look skinnier. Same with any weight I guess.
I'm not a jelly bean! I'm a human being, we make mistakes (HAHAH LAME saying my mom once said to me long ago). I'm learning not to care!

-Amber